7/6/08

All is not so sweet on the compost heap...

In many posts here, I suppose I have flippantly dived into my personal life in an inconsequential way, picking out little details or observations to pad out my twitterings about music. I never spoke much about the more serious end of my personal life because other blogs can walk that emotional tightrope, and do that well. I believe that if I tried to walk that rope, I would fall face-first into a pit of navel-gazing mulch of no use to anyone coming here for a fix of MP3s and some random digressions. Also I get a bit embarrassed and feel like a sitting duck if I open up too much.

For one post only, however, I feel I should risk mentioning personal things in a wee bit more detail for two reasons. First, some of the regular readers here might have met me out and about the few times I ventured into town recently, and found me in odd form. Second, I want to provide a reason as to why I might not be posting up here as much as usual during the coming weeks. Without going into too many particulars, I have depression at the moment. This is why I am mostly at home in Kells. It's not something I am ashamed of, even though I think there is still a certain stigma associated with the illness in Ireland. It is affecting my life in different ways. Yet, I am on the path to wellbeing thanks to medicine and support. I would never want this to become a "depression" blog (even though, again, I am sure there are many good blogs out there dealing with that sort of thing). In fact that's entirely the opposite of what I typically do here. So I will only be writing when my humour and energy levels swing me into the comfort zone required for the usual ramblings.

My lovely girlfriend introduced me to a band called Galaxie 500 when we started going out 18 months ago. Some of their songs, and this one in particular, calm my mind when I feel troubled. It's that cathartic way that certain songs about being sad can paradoxically alleviate an upset head; simply because of their yearning beauty. Thanks for this LoLo and for everything else too!

Business as usual will hopefully return to the compost heap sooner rather than later.

MP3: Galaxie 500-Snowstorm

20 comments:

My Left Ventricle said...

I love you xx

Astonishing Sod-Ape said...

That's a tough break. I know whereof you speak. Music certainly helps, more than most things.

Have to say, I've really been enjoying your posts over the last while. Tremendous stuff. Hopefully I'll see you at some gig or other soon (at Soundcheck perhaps?).

I hope you get through the next while with the minimum of hassle. Rest assured lots of people will be rooting for you!

Michelle (from Goldsmith Hall) says hi by the way!

Anonymous said...

I hope you're feeling better in no time. Counseling really helped me when I went through a nasty phase. All the best!

Adam said...

Hey man. Much love from all of us -i.e. me - from There Will Be Blog. I still owe ya a beer from the Times New Viking boozeathon too.

nialler9 said...

yo darragh,

you rock, so logically you'll be fine. see ya soon.

Gardenhead said...

thanks for the kind words there dudes. I feel sort of weirded out by myself that I let my guard down enough to put up that sort of a post last night. Its just I've really not been myself recently and I felt I owed people an explanation. Also, in a perfect world, announcing that you have depression should be no more revealing than announcing you have the flu. We should all see it that way. Lolo me too! Astonishing sod ape-are you called jim perchance? Hey to Michelle too! Niall, if I rock, you roll. Adam, for all I know you could owe me a beer, a house, a cow, or a line of dancing girls from that night, such is my lack of knowledge of what happened. All I know is that my dictaphone magically managed to record a few moments of us in their tour van thingy and the drunken shite being talked was horrendous. And that was before the village.

Adam said...

Truly, we are legends. I had a grainy vid of you dancing to Jape in The Village but your moves were so hot they dissolved the image in my phone just like in Mission Impossible.

Aero said...

Aero loves you, you know this to be true. Always be here if needed. There's been questions raised of a possible Aero vs Moro reunion lately.

Gardenhead said...

AEROvsMORO reuinion would be a very fine thing indeed. Very fine.

aoife mc said...

Hey lovey - I second nine. Wait. That's confusing. What Niall said I say too. See you soon and be well xx

PS I still think you should put more cookery into this blog. It would be lip smackingly good. When myself and niall have a decent kitchen between us, you'll be our first guest for macaroni and cheese a la Aoife Mc. x

Gardenhead said...

Aoife. Yes. Yes I will. Do both, that is. More cookery posts. And come over for grub.

lauren said...

Fair play to you for posting this, Darragh, you're right about the stigma. It's ridiculous. Your honesty and descriptive way with words makes this blog one of my absolute favourites. Hope you feel right soon.

Gardenhead said...

ah shucks Lauren. That's a nice compliment. I should be right as rain soon. I am resting and taking time off college. Its funny though, I said that I might not write that many blogs in the coming weeks but here I am blogging away billy-o.

Karl said...

This is the only blog around that I genuinely look forward to new posts on. Tour de force shit. Time off or not, I'll be clicking my bookmark every day just in case.

I don't know if I imagined that Chicken Maryland with tomato and basil pesto on penne was a real meal that I ate/saw somewhere, but either way I can't stop thinking about eating it. Is it real?

Gardenhead said...

Jeepers Karl thanks. For what it's worth I think you are a fucking brilliant write. Dunno about that recipe. Sounds like two different dishes combined. maybe you got them at a buffet? Isn't chicken maryland just what the yanks call a big lump of chicken breast with a wine and cream gravy? But as mister imaginationland said in Southpark, whatever you imagine is REARRRLL!!!

Karl said...

Real or not, it's eaten now:

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v498/karlthedaze/14072008163.jpg

Gardenhead said...

Did it taste as sexy as it looks on the plate? Ahem. Loreana does something quite similar actually, calls it LoLo's surprise

max halley said...

Hey Darragh, i've been feeling pretty crap lately too, so Frank sent me a link for this post. In a strange sort of way, your post, your friends comments and that song really cheered me up. Hope you're feeling better soon.

Gardenhead said...

hey max! are you in new york now? I'll email you soon. Hope things are ok.

max halley said...

Yeah i am. I'm heading back to ireland on the 4th though. Things are much better now. The blues always blows over!